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The sound of silence and falling to sleep quickly. I remember it quite well. But that was before I acquired Tinnitus playing in a blues-rock band without ear protection. These days I live with constant ringing in my ears. I say ears plural as I have two different constant high-pitched tones. One for each ear. Yes, my old buddy tinnitus is here to stay. The worst side effect of my tinnitus is, and will always be, the accompanying sleep issues. It seems we humans evolved a defense mechanism that is now working against me. The last sense that succumbs to sleep is our hearing. It is also the first sense to arouse us. Darwinian theory suggests that those humans who did not arouse easily if a Saber-tooth tiger or Grizzly were near (and making noise) soon became a midnight snack for hungry prehistoric predators. Those humans who’s hearing functioned as an early warning system survived. Evolution at it’s most basic level. Silencil The sound of silence and falling to sleep quickly. I remember it quite well. But that was before I acquired Tinnitus playing in a blues-rock band without ear protection. These days I live with constant ringing in my ears. I say ears plural as I have two different constant high-pitched tones. One for each ear. Yes, my old buddy tinnitus is here to stay. The worst side effect of my tinnitus is, and will always be, the accompanying sleep issues. It seems we humans evolved a defense mechanism that is now working against me. The last sense that succumbs to sleep is our hearing. It is also the first sense to arouse us. Darwinian theory suggests that those humans who did not arouse easily if a Saber-tooth tiger or Grizzly were near (and making noise) soon became a midnight snack for hungry prehistoric predators. Those humans who’s hearing functioned as an early warning system survived. Evolution at it’s most basic level.

Sound arouses us, warns us and keeps us alive. Unless, of course, that particular sound is user-generated like my tinnitus. My subconscious does not seem to have the capability to differentiate between a tiger’s growl, a fire alarm, or my ringing ears. Ergo, my sleep problem. Tinnitus is an alarm sounding 24/7. During the day it simply becomes background noise. There are times while awake

that my tinnitus is barely perceptible. But at night, when the television goes silent, the lights dim and all background sounds disappear as I begin to drift off to sleep my ringing ears start screaming, ‘ You are in danger! Tiger in the cave! Get up or die!’.

So I got up, over and over again.Until I got sick of it. I was tired of being tired. I knew decades ago that the sound of rain, fans, wind, music, waves, crickets or almost anything else that makes a constant sound, drowns out tinnitus. As it turns out, nature sounds have natural brown, pink and white noise properties that block out tinnitus. I also knew that deep meditation and visualization helps with generic insomnia. You see, it seems I received a double dose of insomnia as I have a mind that occasionally will not shut down for the night. Is the oven off? Did I lock the door? What’s up with my pin-headed boss? What if the company loses that contract? Will there be layoffs? Is there a tiger in the cave? Thinking, thinking, thinking…

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